Bs"d
To
Camillo Website,
I
accidentally came across your website a few years
ago. I must say that it strengthened certain thoughts that I had
over the
subject. I had always known, for example, that my great
grandfather, who
was an important rabbi and hassid (in the original sense) in
I soon
began to realize that it was a lot of kabbalistic
stuff, woven together with the beautiful Musar. I realized that in
order to
really understand the Tanya, I would have to study the Zohar and the
works of
R. Hayim Vital. Since my aramaic was very poor, and I had a peculiar
fear of
actually buying the Zohar( unconscious fear), I started studying the
text
through the internet. I couldn't understand a word.
My
Brother-in-law, in the mean time, was completely
enticed by the kabbalah. He would pray with all the kavvanot of the
Ari,
concentrating on the Sefirot, despite being a new Hozer Betshuvah, and
his
Rabbi told him not to do so and that he should stick to the Shulchan
Aruch. But
Why? If the Zohar is the truth, the Hochmat ha-emet, why hide it from
us?
Anyhow,
one night I have this strange dream. I dream
that my brother in law has bought a large pink fat pig. This lovely pig
is
running around in his house, all over the place.
Next
morning I go and visit him. To my great surprize, the
guy has bought the whole set of Zohar "Matok Midvash" edition.
That is the day he became a total fanatic.
I myself,
perplexed by my strange dream, decide to study
with him, with all the perushim. The problem is I am not satisfied with
the
perushim because of the polytheistic bent of the perushim, and the fact
that it
all seems to disconnected from reality. I didn't realize at that time
that
there was anything polytheistic about it. I tried to interpret it
allegorically. It just didn't make any sense. Who was Abba, Imma, Zeir
and
Nukva. I didn't understand. I thought it was some kind of Spiritual
Quantum
Mechanics. Totally innocent. But after a while I found out that they
were
talking about G-d!!! I was
shocked. All this was "maarechet
HaElohut"?!!
You see, I was so
Tamim, in my belief in Achdus Hashem,
that despite all my intelligence, I
could not
understand what I was reading.
Mental Blockage. SO I reread the stuff,
as if it
was some semi-polytheistic pantheon
of Hashem's internal life (whatever).
The whole Zohar became clear as
day. All the difficult
pseudo-aramaic
disappeared. It was easy. AND
TERRIBLE. I developed a terrible
headache.
My head felt light as feather. Completely
hollow. The feeling you
get when
some uberChochem tries to bullshit
you(excuse me for the
language).
Then I
came
upon your
website, Camillo. It all fit. I
could never undertand how the
beautiful
Hassidut of the Baal Shem Tov had
degenerated into hundreds of warring
factions.
Never understood why everybody was
going to graves of Zaddikim. Why
there
were so many charlatans. Why the
Mitnagdim and hassidim were always
quarreling.
Why the Lubavitcher Rebbe, who I
admired, was being deified. Why
they were
all cuckoo. Why it was O.K to put up
his pictures, everywhere.
This knowledge
has left me with a lot of pain. I
love Hassidut. I love Rebbe Nachman's
concepts.
I think most Rambamists are over
intellectualizing. I think they
misinterpret
him. I also need to feel part of
my community. I don't want to be
considered
a Kofer, so I shut my mouth. I pray
in minyan, but don't say leshem
yichud.
Most people don't understand what they're
saying. My brother in Law
still
thinks its got nothing to do with
Hashem. He calls it Kinnuyim for the
Sefirot.
He says that the Zohar is the truth,
the Emet. That the mishna can only
be
understood through it. That most of us
don't understand it because we are
from the
Erev Rav. My Rabbi loves reading
stories from the Zohar, though he
never
goes into Kabbalah. He is a real Zaddik,
but he accepts everything with
Temimut.
PLEASE ANSWER ME
SO I KNOW YOU RECEIVED MY MESSAGE. I
DON'T LIKE TO FEEL THAT I HAVE
BEEN
WRITING TO NOBODY.
G-D BLESS YOU
REPLY
OF PERETZ GREEN
17-12-06
Dear
Michael, Shalom
u-Bracha,
Your letter
really warmed my heart and I thanked
HaShem for your being redeemed. In some ways your situation reminded me
of mine
before becoming talmid of the Tzadik Haim. I too am from a 'tradional'
non
religious Jewish family. I had the good fortune to study Hebrew in a
public
High School (
As all the
others, I believed fully in all that
stuff and in temimut gemora I never questioned such things. On the
contrary, my
desire was to get inside those higher levels and I spent most of my
five years
with Habad in studying Tanya (even teaching Tanya to new-comers),
Hassidut,
Zohar and Sifrei Kabbalah. My life changed when I met, in
This great
and hidden Yemenite Sage opened my eyes
to the tremendous falsehoods that
For the past
24 years after his death, I have been
writing documents and books of the teachings of the Tzadik Haim, Head
of the 36
Hidden and Suffering Tzadikim of this past generation. These books and
documents, which are all part of the larger Work called Sefer Mishnat
Haim, are
not published nor do I have permission to publish them. They are kept
with us,
a small group of pupils, until the time comes to make them known. The
documents
that you find on Website Camillo and in the linked Website Beit Ester
are all
texts of Sefer Mishnat Haim of which I am responsible.
I read your
letter, translating it into Italian, in
our Tuesday night Beit Ester study, before Paolo, Noda, Giuseppe,
Abramo and
Hadassa. They all loved your letter and were immensely happy for you
and they
praised your intelligence, your temimut and your zchut (perhaps, and
even
probably, zchut avot from your Grandfather of
All of us
were extremely awakened by the brilliant description
of your non-realization of the fact that all this is supposedly
speaking about
HaShem. I said to them, "It's perfectly true, you do not realize what
it's
all really talking about. You think about some sort of 'cosmic
construction'
the secret of which is now being revealed. They have not been able to
understand the sense of Emanation before Creation. Yes, your speaking
about a
'construction'- a 'construction of Emanated Godheads' before
creation!!!!!
We thank God
Almighty that you have been redeemed,
Michael, from this terrible plague from which
We received
your letter, sent to us e-mail by Adam
Kamkaji in Bersheva who manages the Camillo and Beit Ester Webs from
there,
today Tuesday, Dec. 6, on this the same day that the conclusion of the
International Convention in Iran on the existence of the Holocaust or
not,
finished. The mamzer's conclusion was the same,
This two-day
Convention, however, is climactic. It
is an outrageous outpouring of hatred and anti-Semitism to which the
entire
world is witness. And so too the entire Arab world in this moment
relishes in the
idea of
Your letter
thus came at a moment in which there is
a great necessity to find merit in
The dream
that you received was a true prophetic
dream. The pig shows its cloven feet trying to pass off for a kosher
animal,
but its only a big fat pink pig. Pink is a female color. This alludes
to the
fact that the Zohar is a big, fat prostitute and that it possesses
nothing of
'zachar' - that is worthy of mentioning or of remembering. Kulo Taref!
Your dream
is nothing less than a testimony from Above, not from people of the
earth but
from Above, that the entire Zohar and everything it teaches and all the
false
Kabbalah that has derived from it is a big, fat, pink pig. Heaven has
spoken
it. And you, Michael, in your love for the truth, merited to receive
it.
I,
therefore, ask you, Michael, to give us
permission to place your letter on the Site so that others may benefit
by it.
Your experience and the dream you received is a mind-opener and many
others could
be helped by it. It is as well a great zchut for you because if other
people
are helped by it, you take merit in this for each person that gains
understanding from it. Please let me know if you agree or if this
represents a
problem for you and we'll respect your decision.
Please feel
free to write to me. And if you have
any questions, please ask. For now we can correspond through the Web in
Very happy
to have heard from you,
Happy Hhanuca
Peretz Green
Inzago,
Milano